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WRITE YOUR OWN HAPPINESS

#1: Forgive. Whoever it is, whatever it is.

I’ve always seen forgiveness as the key factor to enlightenment heh. Not only does it release yourself from all that angsty anger, it also breaks the vicious cycle of mutual resentment. Want to find happiness? Firstly you have to let go of your anger. Even if it is forgiving yourself, a family member, or a friend – be the greater person and do it.

Granted, it isn’t easy, but it is the only thing within your total control. Rather than spending your time getting upset, exaggerating their faults, or plotting ways to retaliate, why not just learn to love again?

One way I find effective is to ask yourself, what makes (insert mortal enemy here) like that? For him/her to have done (whatever heinous thing he/she did), he/she must’ve been pretty messed up him/herself. Once you feel sympathy (okay and fine, superiority), the forgiveness comes in easy.

ALRIGHT and that was Day One in my path of enlightenment! That went well enough~ Hopefully I’ll have enough bullshit wisdom to forge my way through 365 days.

30-DAY BLOG CHALLENGE

01 – Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

Single. I won’t say miserably – honestly haven’t thought about entering a relationship again. Neither am I blissfully single – because c’mon don’t bullshit la everyone wants ~somebody to loveee.

More accurately, I haven’t been giving much thought about it. With the whole transition into JC, the rather startling disappointment in realization that boys are basically intelligent primates, and being caught up with schoolwork, new friends and old friends, there isn’t much time left on pining away for anyone.

OH BUT THERE WAS THIS PHASE where I had this hugeassmoungous crush on Joseph-Gordon Levitt and honestly, HONESTLY thought okay damn, if he were real I would so totally date him. OK THAT MAKES ME SOUND SO PATHETICALLY GEEKY LET’S MOVE ON.

But on a serious note. I think I’ve somehow wizened up and learnt to distinguish my own feelings. Crushes aside (and the strangest crush of the 2010 goes to this absolutely adorable boy at this kopitiam WHO WAS CRAZILY MATURE AND SWEET to his sister and I wanted to marry him. YEAH HE WAS SADLY IN PRIMARY SCHOOL BUT LOVE ENDURES NOTIONS OF TIME AND AGE OK.) Wait, what was I saying? YEAH crushes aside, I know I’m not ready nor have I met anyone I would become un-single for.

(Well besides JGL and the primary school boy boy HOMG.)

OH THERE IS ONE INCREDIBLY SAD AND ANNOYING THING ABOUT BEING SINGLE.

And that is having to endure the scarily mushy-mush-ness of other couples. I’m generally tolerant of couple displays of affection, but SOMETIMES. IT’S. JUST. SO. HARD. TO. BEAR. You know those that makes your brain liquidate and leak out of your ears and you wish so hard you had the courage to gouge out your eyes?

When you aren’t in a relationship, it’s hard to empathize from their point of view, so these very in-your-face proclamations of love become agonizing and difficult to ignore. And when you angst about it, they’ll be all like YOU JEALOUS BETCH and we can be all WHUT NO. IT’S REALLY GROSS. And all. You know.

And very obviously I am running out of steam so I shall absolve you from having to sit through this tedious and again, incoherent self-rumination.

G’DAY AND TOMORROW FOR DAY 2! :-)

OH and in case you care enough for an update (or, if you’re still reading this, instead of ripping off the challenge and running off to pimp your own weblog):

SCHOOL IS.. surprisingly enriching (at least the first week was). Everyone found their drive I guess. I managed to LEARN during class. Imagine that. Alright ignore that.

EDIT: NO. STRANGEST CRUSH OF 2010 GOES TO RAJ KOOTHRAPALI FROM THE BIG BANG THEORY. He is adorkable.