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General Paper and Literature Paper 1 tomorrow, marking the start of Blocks. I don’t really know what I’m doing here either, but it’s almost customary that before major exams I post – together with an apologetic note to self that I shouldn’t be.

During the March Break when I have more time to be not guilty when not studying when I should be, I’ll post about the things I miss about St. Nicks like 挤牛奶 and mushroom-cheese-toast and 姐姐妹妹们. Sometimes even I feel like I’m aggressively sentimental and may or may not border on annoying – but aiyah. Whatevs.

Everyone’s falling sick, and I kind of am too – but not explicitly. Like, I don’t have a motherhacking cough but I can feel myself being rather out of sorts and uncomfortable in many ways. My muscles feel odd, my intestines are being strange, and my entire sense of focus on the world has gone haywire.

I would consider myself pretty clueless at times about my surroundings, but at the same time largely aware intuitively. Like, sometimes I miss the bigger going-ons but at least I keep track with what I’m doing and who’s doing what and what I should do.

But today was a total surreal experience. The past few days have been flagged with incredibly vivid dreams that seem somewhat more real than reality itself. So much so that I’m more than a little confused. I don’t think I actually woke up fully, but was in fact walking around in a semi-unconscious state. I left things all over the place, forgot what I was doing, often lost track of everything around me. I sound like a character straight out of WSS.

Which reminds me… I should be studying. This post itself reeks of meandering thought processes and a certain lack of grounding, don’t you think? But never mind.

Well this certainly adds some excitement into my otherwise rather dreary and surreal current lifestyle. I know it’s very cheenapiangzi but I really don’t mind anyone scoffing at my choice of idols. Bosco Wong and Moses Chan are my OF ALL TIME favourite male artistes.

Also, just noticed that of the four, I prefer the less suave half. Interesting.. I’ll take it that being hilarious and oddly shaped ranks of greater importance than looks to me. Uhhhh…

OH RIGHT. I wanted to ask if anyone wants to watch this with me. I just want to meet them live, not so much of hearing them sing. The last time I went to watch a HK star, I was in primary school and he was Aaron Kwok (I know right, so old school cheenapiangzi). Enjoyed it but I fell asleep halfway, so. Tickets are priced at 78 onwards and only shitty seats are left.

I’ll definitely be posting more often, because I’m not supposed to. So I’ll see you around here and I’m wishing for my hyper-awareness to return because I feel like I’m on drugs and or hormonal overdose.