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faults.

i think i’m old enough to do this. a non-comprehensive list of my flaws, while i’m still in the let’s be brutally honest i want to improve myself gear – which doesn’t come by very often.

1. i love talking and discussing about myself way too much.

2. almost never make the effort to ask friends out.

3. can’t keep my own secrets.

4. over-confidence leading to undue contentment leading to complete inertia.

5. i don’t want enough things.

6. i don’t want things enough to try for them.

7. even when i should, i don’t confront people/things.

8. sometimes i’m a self-righteous prick.

9. it’s hard for me to tell my friends how much i like them.

10. i judge people by their sense of humor.

11. i play up whatever someone thinks me to be.

12. which is starting to confuse me because i’ve caught myself saying contradictory things to different people.

13. …yet i still agree with both stances. which means i don’t have solid convictions.

14. i’m nicer to pretty girls.

15. i like to interfere too much.

16. cut myself too much slack.

17. can’t handle commitments.

18. make almost no effort at humility.

19. not wise enough to perceive all my faults.

but i’ll try. feel free to bitch about me to me so i can include them in the next list!

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  1. syncorolldesu Avatar
    syncorolldesu

    Nothing is permanent.

    Its a reminder that nothing ever stays the same, and worrying about things cause nothing ever stays the same and despairing about it staying the same is just ignoring the fact that everything is always changing. It really is a new world when you wake up in the morning, even if you don’t realize it. Just turn on the news. That wasn’t happening yesterday, right?

    I get the feeling that everyone in this joint is obsessed with this idea that nothing ever changes, therefore life sucks. Even though that’s complete bull, I see it a lot. I myself say it a lot.

    But you know what? it’s okay. It’s late. Go to bed. And when you wake up you’ll be in a better place. Promise .There’s wind blowing down my curtains right now. The trees are starting to change color and i don’t give a damn about what people think of me in my pull-up socks. I eagerly received a hug from someone even though i’m embarrassed about hugs. Because you get through life doing one thing at a time. That one extra step will get you far.

    Life is beautiful. You’ll be okay. Everything is fine.
    Just go to sleep.

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    1. rictusempraa Avatar
      rictusempraa

      haha thank you. i may be coming off weirdly upset, but i’m really not. it’s just a more-subdued-than-usual evaluation of self.

      (because i need to be subdued when i evaluate myself or it’ll never happen.)

      but it’s precisely because i’m such a huge believer of change and it-will-be-okay-ness and sleepingtoomuch and not-giving-a-damn-about-what-people-think that it stops me from becoming someone better (which is always a good thing).

      so anyway, thanks! i’m a very happy person, really. and i do take many many steps all the time – just not the sensible ones.

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