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Woke up this morning feeling really good about life. I mean, really. Maybe because it’s Friday. Maybe because in 10 hours i’d be headed home with my best friend to my favorite people. Maybe because there honestly isn’t anything about life i can complain about now. Being such a regular Pollyanna now even i’m scaring myself, pls.

I may be injured but i’m recovering (!!!) and soon i’d be out frolicking around. Also all my limbs are intact and i’m in good health, no debilitating disease or chronic illnesses.

I may have deadlines to meet and grades to achieve but hey! I’m loving the process of learning so much. Which brings me to how i’ve been increasingly certain of majoring in Psych. Yeah Psychology was always a choice for me because i’ve always been nosey about how humans tick. But what with the multiplicity of choices in University i was somewhat torn – kept feeling like there was something else i could do (and do better).

But after i got over the shock of Psych’s science-y, technical, textbook factual aspects (and weirdly even come to appreciate it), i’ve decided that yes this is really what i want to do. Every day i’m fascinated by what i learn, i challenge what i read, i feel stimulated. THIS is what i pictured University to be, and i’m grateful so grateful for a good education. (Although i have yet to discover what i’d do with my life lol.)

I’m living in a beautiful place. Need to stop taking this for granted. UTown is beautiful, conducive for learning – but the huge expanses make it incredibly good for R & R too. It may not be exactly the rolling green hills of Yale, but it’s new and fresh and clean and green. One of the nicest places in Singapore and i’m living here, studying here. Need to be more aware of how lucky i am.

Yesterday a photo of my sis and grandma popped up on my Instagram feed and i missed my Po so terribly. Get to see her once this day is over, and this is another thing i’m utterly thankful for. May not be studying overseas being independent and glamorous – and at times i wonder if this is a regret, but no. My priorities are different from others and there isn’t must point in comparing.

Honestly, i wouldn’t be happy overseas knowing that i’m depriving myself of years i can spend with my grandma while i can. This sound depressing and my Po is in excellent health tyvm, but she’s afterall 80. A year, a month, a weekend, an hour out – i’ll hoard any amount of time i can have with her. Note to self: call her later when she’s awake.

Also friends who make it a point to catch up with you, know about your life, and offer you all the help you need when you do. Want to remind myself that this is a blessing. The random Facebook messages telling me they miss me, squeezing in quality time whenever we can just for a short chat. Gotta be proactive as well in including my friends’ lives and needs into my own life.

Oh and also, aiming to gain 3kg by end of this semester or at least sometime this holiday. Then another 2kg once I achieve that. Want to reach a weight where I CAN DONATE BLOOD. Never got to a point where i could because of my iron levels, and finally when that’s sorted there’s a weight limit ok oh good spring this on me now then. But yeah, i’m healthy young and able and very eager to give. 5kg let’s go, next blood drive i’ll be there FEEDING THE BLOOD LUST.