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  • ma~da

    Wow so I have not written a single proper, this-is-my-life-now post for more than a month.

    Here is my life now: busy, but good.

    I don’t feel very in touch with school this semester – probably a post-exchange syndrome – and I’m expecting first class honors to slip out of my grasp by the end of this term. But I’m okay with that.

    This period of time has been more about what I’m doing beyond NUS. It’s a quarter of a year of my life, not just “a semester” contextualized by school.

    So it has been lots of friends, new projects (!!!), side work, meeting people new&old. And lots of prime time with my SP3 making plans for the future.

    A future that has just had its windows blown wide open, because… well yeah:

    About being single again, it has been exciting. Finding myself outside the context of a relationship… the freedom can get overwhelming at times, but so far I am quite enjoying being overwhelmed by everyone and everything.

    xo

    lots of positive vibes.

    October 17, 2015

  • a kind of madness

    for anyone who had food become a demon in their mind, xo

    To stand mid-aisle at the grocer’s,

    shelves unraveling in sensual

    chrome; to have this cookie pressed in

    the flex of my palm, insisting,

    crying a bald infant’s need to

    be fed. It reminds me that I

    am mad and have become numbers –

    each pound and rib immaculate,

    quietly approaching zero. If

    this self could still be mine, hold me

    up at the cashier, razor thin

    blade against bone, and have me choose:

    body or your life?

    body or my life.

    October 15, 2015

  • quantum improbability

    (or, the crudeness of measurement)

    Subatom flicker

    – ing through a haze of probability
    into the lick of my open palm,

    finding you was mere plot: latitude against longitude
    on an imaginary plane.

    To keep you safe I swallow you whole. Warm for days,
    you burn into nights.      I measure skid marks
    to chase your spin and speed

    but logic has lost count. A second is a braid
    that unspools into hours held
    by thumb on throat to your pulse now mine.

    The neighbour upstairs thinks I am possessed.

    The letterbox creaks for release.

    Inside me a glyph spreads like virus, foreign
    and incurable.

    October 12, 2015

  • comfort of a thought you

    It is the thought you I want most. Its lines
    sharp and scalpel clean, breathing cool
    words from my tattered paperbacks. I fold
    in neat angles; a colt with origami legs quiet
    on my palm.

    The you now are impossible shapes in a dream
    of water. Rushing, rising, ebb and slow-
    shifting haze of hues I cannot name. Leave me
    blinking in a curling tide. Fill each crest with hope
    and a hologram you; Its sea-foam laughter

    streaming through my cellophane hands. Awake,
    I would unfold you and read your edges like braille.

    October 8, 2015

  • Transient

    Piece written for SingPoWriMo a few months back, give a picture prompt:

    –

    no bells would toll for him. somewhere
    the hasty half-ring of boy on bike.

    we negotiate a world after: the ghost
    sting of diesel missed only by student,
    late, catching the tail end of -ajulah
    singapura. home, the daily stray rolls
    a haughty eye at barren bowl.

    in headier years his biro scratched
    itself dry: sir. english is no good, beg pardon. thank you for racial harmony, chinese now take my taxi.
    at rallies, his lungs rattle
    with alien words; joins a skyward
    sea of fists.

    now,
    a film of dust on knuckles.
    a face as single flip book page.
    a child’s shriek quailed by mother,
    “肮脏,不要看”

    September 24, 2015

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  • Rethinking ‘Shopgirl’ by Steve Martin

    Shopgirl has always been one of my favorite novellas of all time. It’s clean, exquisitely written, and feel good without the usual triteness. Lately i revisited it in my memory, out of nowhere, and thought of the way Mirabelle’s identity has been sculpted and managed by a male narrative. That’s something i’ve never noticed before.

    As appealing as the novella’s serenity is (specifically, i praised it for being ‘highly cognitive’), it’s not a truthful portrayal of love, of a woman’s path in finding herself. Mirabelle is romanticized, idealized, couched within the framework of acceptable insanity. She is quirky, she is unaccomplished, she is even clinically depressed – but she’s all that without fuss. Mirabelle is quelled by the dominant narrative voice, bolstered and made whimsical by her quietness. We barely know Mirabelle, the real one, with all the tears and neurosis that definitely has to be there.

    Like Tom, the ‘regular lunchtime Mirabelle-watcher’ – who ogles at her while we are supplied with an impeccable descriptive piece of Mirabelle’s unassuming sexuality (‘Mirabelle’s legs are slightly ajar, creating a wee wedge of a slight line right up her skirt’) – we have become spectators to the undressing of Mirabelle under Steve Martin’s neat dissection of her as an object of desire.

    Ray Porter, protagonist extraordinaire, lonely and sophisticated, romances Mirabelle before becoming generous father figure. It’s indicative of Steve Martin’s own fantasies of philandering guilt-eased by philantrophy, and I’m surprised I didn’t pick it up sooner.

    Precisely what I had loved about Shopgirl – its elegant ways, its well of benevolent characters, are its very faults. In my brief re-reading, Mirabelle is more self-effacing than i’d initially remembered. Ray Porter is too much a projected self, and Jeremey’s trajectory of growth much too optimistic. Jaded, maybe? But coffeehouse romance has once more tipped to the scale of 0 in the scoreboard of Good Reads in this Genre.

    September 19, 2015

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